what is the thing we do to free ourselves from our own pain. is it the easiest thing to find or do we have to destroy ourselves to get to the place its held.i know not what is in creation but have an idea of what is destroyed. not knowing is something better than even a glimpse of knowledge. the path you take is your own. is not what is conceived to be evident tangible or are the wheel getting no grip. i prefer to be lost in my mind even when doing so endangers my future existence. its never the easiest thing in my case. i fall and have nothing to grip onto. always in a eternal fall through my mistakes and sorrows. i want to gain my escape before i have fallen to far and long to be saved. its not the loss that grinds my but the guilt that follows.i have failed. but there is still a chance to make it. i just need one protruding rock and i may make my ascension to once again reach my inner peace.